I went out to an open mic at a coffee house this evening. I was the only person there over 30 years old, I’m pretty sure. Most everyone else was a teenager.
Music-wise, there were the usual singer-songwriters with guitars, and then there were the rest of us techno music geeks with our laptops, MIDI controllers, and weird vocal effects.
I was also probably one of the few straight people there. The sound guy and his partner were also musicians, and they were really nice to an old guy like me. He said his name was David, “or Mary Louise.” It turned out that was his stage name. (The name of the coffee house was the Queen Bean, btw.)
The stage was outside under the big tent on the deck, but it didn’t really feel too cold out there. The two lattes I drank kept me warm, and I’m still sort of buzzing from the caffeine.
My name got pulled form the hat first, so David asked if I would go first. I said, “oh, okay, that way if I crash and burn there’ll be plenty of time for the evening to recover.”
This was the first time I was going to try vocal looping live, after all, and I was kind of nervous. I had decided earlier in the day to sing something easy and familiar, “Don’t worry, be happy.” So, I started singing: I laid down the bass line, then the rhythm parts, then the high falsetto harmonies. Then, I sang the lyrics over that, with slight alterations to make them current.
(For example, when the lyrics were: “Landlord says your rent is late, he may have to litigate,” I changed it to “Mortgageman say he take your house, sheriff came and kicked you out. . .Don’t worry. . .be happy.”)
They loved it. I suspect it may have been because they were amazed to see a guy over 35 years old who knows how to use a computer for more than word processing and email. At any rate, they were very gracious in their response, and I will definitely go back there again (maybe on March 15 – so beware!).
And I met one guy in particular who gave me some pointers on some software I might use with my looping. He played original ambient electronic music, using a MIDI controller, his laptop with his own drum loops and pre-recorded synth loops. It was definitely the highlight of the evening, and he mentioned that he thought my vocal loops were the highlight of his. We may collaborate on some music in the future, I hope, if he needs any vocals.
It’s strange, though, that I might feel most at home with musicians so much younger than me, with such a different life orientation. When I got home this evening, I asked Laurie if she thought I was completely crazy to be pursuing this musical exploration. She said, “Yes, but that’s why I love you.” What can I say? All I can do is echo the words from one of Billy Joel’s earliest albums: she’s my home.
In another sense, though, since we’ve moved back to California I’ve been on a gradual coming-home journey in my creative life. I was born in California, and my family is all here in the area. That should be enough to make me feel welcome, I suppose. But, since I’ve been making more music lately, the sense of coming home has been increasing. I think it’s also related to the fact that I’m getting older, and less concerned about what people think about me, and more concerned about expressing myself creatively in an authentic way.
I mentioned in a previous post that I spent a week at my parents’ house working on learning the looping software. I didn’t mention that at the end of the week, I gave my parents a little demonstration. When I was done, my father, who is very pragmatic, had this to say: “Besides your own personal enjoyment, what possible use could that have?” Bless his heart, his gifts lie in more practical pursuits. My mother, who is more of a mystic, said, “Wow, think of all the possibilities!” And these are the tapes I have had looping in my head for almost 40 years now, two terminals on a continuous line: the practical and the creative, the realistic and the remotely possible, and my dreams unrealized somewhere in between.
And, once again through some bizarre expression of God’s cosmic sense of humor, I was living out my dream with those wonderful “kids.” You know, they wouldn’t let me sing at the boomer jazz club I visited a few weeks ago, but at this open mic event was my chance to integrate those old looping tapes in my head, practicing the creative, making possibilities and dreams become real.
Not bad for an almost 40-year-old. I’ve tried to come up with a stage name for myself as a looper. It finally came to me this evening. From now on, call me Triple-09. (On 09-09-09, I turn forty.)